secret momentswhen i can't access my pen and paper Thursday, September 05, 2002i'm not doing the best these days. kinda living under a cloud of haze. kinda unwilling and unsure. confused what the cause of it all.realized today that i'm not happy because i'm not living in full obedience. as His child bought at a precious price, i can't live to the fullest without pleasing my father. i can't be happy when He's not happy with me. but i don't know what to do. feel too helpless to kneel and seek earnestly. requires so much more than i can give right now... but that's just what i think. maybe i'm just lazy. not as desperate. worship songs just doesn't stir in me that love and joy for Him these days. avril lavigne sounds so addictive these days. the word isn't soaking in as it should. Lord, have mercy on me. help me. i don't want to live like this. .: posted by me 7:53 PM |
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