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Friday, June 23, 2006

i miss him.
it's a waxing and waning feeling. last night i was ok. earlier this morning i was ok. i accepted that he's really not the best deal. that he's not for me. then i saw his business card in my wallet. *sigh*

i'm just being girly, i know. need to trust more. have more faith.
and i do pray that he's doing well, doing better with faith.

can't imagine dating someone for a long time and breaking up. can't imagine the agony.

so hard not to think about him. so hard to brush it off, concentrate on my work. and disappointed in bh for not being the best girlfriend for me now. will cancell dinner appt with her. don't feel like talking to her.
help me.
gotta go to journal club. eh

.: posted by me 5:58 AM